Nothing is actually simple. I'd not quite thought of it this way before, but it's true... Cell division is actually really complicated, 1+1 is a simple problem from which you can devise subtraction, multiplication and this whole beautiful system of numbers. Occam's Razor only says 'the simplest' bc nothing is actually simple.


We blanket ourselves in layers of civilisation and howl our agonies as animals.

I've talked about this before.. maybe even bored you, but I've just seen an example of this discussed and I'm furious.

Trevor Noah claims the bullies helped make him what he is. This is a fallacy. His life's experience has made him what he is and if those experiences had included the kind of healthy (supportive) pushing then it's quite possible he would be in the same place as roughly the same person. Experiencing shitty things does force people to consider things in a different way and since your life is largely swayed by your perspective on it this can lead to some major changes.


Did you know this is also something that two of my three paedophiles claimed they were doing for me... challenging me to be more.. because they'd raped me.

The idea that having had shit in your life makes you a better person is utterly absurd.

Shit happens in life and sometimes that cannot be avoided, sometimes.... the volcano erupts... but do people need others to beat them in order to toughen up? Absurd.

Since Trump was elected and britain decided to slit its own throat to leave something that it was pretty lucky to join like that to begin with... I spend half my time considering suicide, a quarter on how stuff could knit back together and a quarter on the best ways to destroy humanity (so far I'm on a tweaked virus so it only infects humans and is too highly contagious to be avoided anywhere on the planet... I'll think of a way to kill anyone on the ISS later.. cue hysterical laughter).

Dumb thing is bc I've spent so much time on carefully breaking myself lately (otherwise known as therapy, uh without a therapist) I've been finding how my cracks sit together, rekindling the love of a blank page filling with spider-writing and the feel of hands thickening under gloves as sawdust fills the room.

There's a process I usually go through in therapy (bc having an external source of insight and support can avoid some of the more extreme reactions like crying yourself asleep, then awake, then asleep again for days at a time). It starts with a contraction, a focusing in on my core and issues, followed by the patterns around these (past and predictable future) then a process of reflection and evaluation. An expansion - a look at how these issues are displayed in the world (I cannot tell you in words how happy I am about R.Moore not getting that election) and this is usually where I collapse in a heap and have to start again because the world has some pretty fucked up views. I've talked about revenge and idealised-sadism within society (punish!), I've talked about poverty and capitalism (though mostly in Means so I'll stick that up sometime), how many many people seem to be misalligned and.. all the things that make me crazy because the only next logical step after finding that my views conflict with the observable society I'm in is to try to make a peace between these or (if that's not possible) try to change as many minds as I can (debate the issue, always accepting the potential that I'm wrong [within reason, evolution is a theory but a damn good one] and therefore debating openly).

I guess that's just it, I need to keep talking to people.

..in life I've found that there are patterns, of behaviour for example, so my rule of thumb is assume nothing about a person but allow that they're capable of both the best and worst of your imagination [edit: and plenty beyond it, in virtually any direction].

..research is fun. For UK people - did you know that the *Metro is owned by the Daily Mail? [Correction: they're both owned by Trinity, link below]. And I'm sure you know this.. there are relatively few people who own newspapers in the UK these days, Trinity Mirror being the largest (wiki) [umbrella corp]. They own the Daily Mail, several other big ones and well over a hundred local papers too.

*For non-UK people: the Metro is a terrifyingly shit free newspaper on every bus, train and tram in basically every city, published Monday through Friday. It's usually got at least a few typo's and spelling mistakes (uh i mean I do that all the time but.. this is a blog) and [basically] only talks about how crappy poor people are and crime, grittier the better it seems.

Shit, huh?

Did anyone not see Blunt Talk? These should give a good feel for it...



According to the internet it was boring.. maybe they didn't observe the guideline of the title enough.

Think I might have just seen something beautiful. Have a look ;)

Edit: Hahaha, oops, this was supposed to go to my beta...... ;)

Group by psycological pattern

Harry Potter (stick with me non nerds) influenced a generation of young minds, and swayed across the older generations' thought patterns too.

JK Rowling isn't the best writer in terms of poetry, plot device etc. I've heard many people discuss the level of enjoyment with a wondering. I've called it her [world building] and found that not quite significant enough words to descibe what I mean broadly enough; and therein lies the heart of the matter.

As a writer I am trying to describe [it happens in the overlays] through character and plot, my peculiar perspective of the (real) world. This is why I love novels and Tv in totally different ways - a novel is one (sometimes more) mind collating together a life of experience into a sifting tapestry that (if effective) will leave a reader mute [/passive] to their own environment and persective; viewing through the eyes of another into a shared imaginative world. Tv collects the minds and body language of many to display a collated world that a viewer can (in a similar manner) be absorbed by. [As discussed before – [CHECK THIS] neuroplasticity would imply that experience is encoded in neuronal patterns that with exercise become more stable and the more likely [path/pattern/chain] for [is it .electrons.] to slide down[/follow].. Given that language works on a basis of mutual experience and context (i.e. I know trees are usually green as does my friend in Australia, we know around autumn they turn yellow as the temperature drops, so if my friend asks about the weather 'leaves have turned' is a decent explination), the language used by a writer can tap into a lifetime of experience]. So if you can effect enough minds to a pattern that's comfortably welcomed and exercised* then a wave of motion in society is formed.

JK Rowling's books were just described to me as a 'modern classic' [prompting this piece]. We can probably all agree that the 7th book wandered (“every publised writer knows, every book is a failure to descibe what was imagined”) so if it's not the plot, characters are great.. but there's someting more - it's the world.

The four houses loosly tie together psychological behaviour/pattern groups; the world is defined by victorious characters that call 'the monster' what he is over leaving an unnamed evil, while accepting that truly awful things happen and can be survived, overcome; and integally, the characters display the kinds of bungling that happens because time doesn't stop for us.

With a world like that you can have characters display all manner of traits in a fresh light.

These are seven books and eight films that had a hand in making who we** are today.

*across the board (of people and experiance)

**me and mine, at least

A/N; some time if you're interested I'll tell the story of seeing the last film for the first time, alone and content with the sounds of the city of Sheffield as a backdrop.

For such dumb creatures humans come up with fucking creative stuff sometimes.

Note to self: q comp.

TLDR

Look i'm not that smart, above average. Like many people who see some more than others i find flaws in society and i'm just smart enough to know how much of an idiot i am and how little i can influence things. the thing i often forget is that intelligence brings means as well as the issues. meditation's been hard for a while, i'm really quite fucked up. but life gives cues if you're watching for them. te breed of intelligence i have gives me the observation aptitude to spot motion (a little) before it becomes evident... ah who knows.. "Zaphod's just this guy, you know.."

watcing trevor noah and ta nehisi coates talk about trump is kinda ilarious and really.. i tink we've ad tat conversation.. 'but there's a shift happening across america, trump's pushing this shit into the open' .. 'hmm, yeah or we're all set for a world war... just saying.'

ty tds


big shout out to Rebel Riot who just completed a uk tour and are fucking lovely people!

Food Not Bombs has also expanded into..
                                   Books Not Bombs and both are well worth giving to if you can!!

Writing sci fi today, best bit of the story so far:

Ahead of her the universe burns it's stars, gapes it's voids and lays secrets bare.

               *gulp*

also this is anoter awesome series, similar lines as te last post but a different perspective.

the beauty of politics is in time.
how ideals last and change, how the people in power failed on or rose to the situations througth time.

hello

tat key isn't working still, hope it's translateable.

i ave a project in hand tat I'm not talking about ere bc it'll be a fucking miracle if it goes anywhere... and could be fucking amazing.

cats and rats are well, life is painful but worth it*. for Halloween I'm hosting a movie night, wit classics suc as Te Great Pumpkin.

*my grandmother a little wile ago told me a story about her sister, who had metal plates strapped to her legs making it possible to move under her own power, these were immensely painful and later in life she was constrained to a wheelchair, as a young woman (long before i was born) she would travel london on buses and smile at everyone, talk to anyone because she could get to her job and live her life, however much it hurt to do so. It inspired te kind of stubborn perseverance that I'd almost forgotten I had.

at some point i'll be back to set the world to right... but meanwhile, i'm busy ;)

arrrrrggg day 4nonstop
melting outta my ears
dcos gave new meds...waiting
aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggg tis sucks

 Just wanted to say thanks to the daily show for drawing attention to Myanmar... this shit is unreal and it's been brewing for a while.


Also the H key on my keyboard died wen a bowl of cereal went over it.... missing Hs will happen. This is cool. Hope people are well.

life is wild and amazing

Testing for echo...

'Civilisation requires being civil..' hmm *nods*

Will be back the next time I'm thikning more than doing.

"Boobs

               boobs

                                boobs


                                                        boooooooooooobs."



needed that, thanks

Psychological processes often work on a knowledge assimilation basis.

e.g. the unknown is scary and once the boundaries (or key points / intersections / parameters) are known it becomes a factored risk; since in essence everything from standing and walking across the room to eating food can be hazardous.
  If you can factor something into routines (without an imbalance) then it loses the weight (potential risk) of an unknown [factor/scenario] and therefore becomes psychologically undaunting (in a manner, nothing's magic really*).
  In my experience this is true for most psychological patterns. [Though watch yourselves for inverted-left down-spin, bc it behaves unusually (anecdotal!) when fed in this manner, sometimes rapidly leading to emotional numbness and ignorance of other hemispheres - or I've known some bitchy 4s!]

* I find the mathematical construct of the black box can be wonderfully useful in processing/meditation... just saying.

If you want something to happen, don't sit back and hope someone does it for you. Stick your neck out, get your hands dirty and fucking work at it until it's done.

Haha! Stiches in my face, they say I look like a pirate!

 About to go get stabbed by a load of needles....

professionals with needles...

...this is a strange sensation.













"Bye sheeps! Thanks for waking me!" :P haha

Birds use cigarette butts for chemical warfare against ticks

Want to say something profound here. Something that fixes the world. shores up all the self esteem issues of the individuals we all are, make it impossible to fear like that guy did. So that everyone understands.

I don't know if there are words enough.

You are an (almost) infinitesimally small part of a universe that is so vast and complex that you are simultaneously the most important thing in your universe and virtually non-existent otherwise.

You can be beaten and abused and you will always be some shade of you. Broken, lost, dementia to the nth degree, doesn't matter because you're always going to be you and there's nothing anyone can do about that. They can even manipulate and change your mind and you will come back given enough life.

You can be the guys who [blah*] and know that you are long forgiven because.. oh man, this life is too short for fear and anger and hate and revenge. And dude it only took me fifteen years to get there. You are just as small as we all are. Bacteria clinging to the edge of the world and looking up. We each have just as much** space to burst ourselves through. We all want a better world... So for fuck's sake please. Humans, please.

I don't know what I can do.

I don't know how I can be more than just myself and pull this whole fucking, feasting, impatient, inopportune species of ours out of the (Jesus!) the fucking second dark ages but fucking hell I'll keep trying.


   oh this video only works for america? [well hey on a different note entirely.. have you guys seen this vpn? it's free and you can use it as an ad-block.............or something]     [*blah edited for this trigger warning: ..can be the guys who raped me and know that you are long forgiven].  **edited bad wording, [internal word-map] makes different meanings of context.


Because we're worth it ;) and so is this floating turtle and whatever, people just need to get the fuck over themselves. We are... None of us are perfect. We all fuck shit up. Sometimes we fuck it up for other people.

,,,,

....

Holy shit this could be read the wrong way. That guy when I mentioned earlier was the cop, scared and fucking up, we're all that guy. And he needed to realise that the world isn't as scary as he thought it was right then, get the fuck over himself and take what life brings. we all need to do that a bit...* if what I see outside the window is anything to go by (fuck knows, I need to get over myself all the fucking time).

There is a process of grief. It involves some anger, anger is a process in-and-of itself (fuels, pushes, motivates action). It's so easy to wallow in emotion, to let it be more than [cognitive displays] and it can be incredibly hard to let it go, to shove it over the top of the hill and watch it fall away.

And [oh god] look I'm one person probably talking shit here... it's not like my life has been the worst, sure it's not all roses but.... look at this world. Really look at where we are... how can we go outside and not smile at strangers.. because... we're all in this together. ALL OF US.



    [edit to addL *holy shit I can't believe that was aquitted.. oh fuck... argghhhhhh.......]



I still don't know what I can do. You know that? I'm 30 and I've only just begun to feel like I can really do things around this place with a good idea that I'm doing it right. It scares the shit out of me that people make more little humans before they even know themselves.. my sister did that (I don't think she regrets it and her kids sure don't - they're amazing, seriously cool people..) I don't think she was prepared at first to grow up like that, to have to shove her own perspective aside for mini-humans - she did it because she's a good mum and an awesome person.. (but.. it's not comfortable at [teenage]yrs)

Someone asked me recently 'it's not the rate of crimes [against women] going up, right? it's the amount that are being reported..?' which I confirmed [I believe this is the case]... Hypothesising a social cascade in motion. This someone talks about intersectionality often.

"She still has the presence of mind to be deferential."

Because it always comes back to perspective, empathy, keeping your head.

            Quietly


So here I sit in this patch of wilderness.
Chased away by the storm,
           calling quietly for the revolution
           (& like a cowardly suicide risk
                        not following through).

This world.
Humans like to understand,
except time,
like to know where we stand,
won't look around.

Dawn breaks and our minds concider
'this is a day, just like yester. and tomorrow'
We take time to happen and time for granted.

This world.
Our world.
Only love and so patient with us.

:P

Don't know what I'm doing here.. be warned this is about to be free flowing nonsense..

Probably said this before.. you can't change the past, the only thing that can happen is a perception change which influences the future. It's harder work than denial or wallowing.

Migraine (day three) so a huge coffee and Farscape... s01e02

Zhaan: "Time and patience."
Crichton: "Is that your answer for everything."
[long exchange about symbiosis and life, episode plot relevant]
Zhaan: "..the answer is reverence for all living beings, which may come with time and patience."


Me  :D

Just had a strange and strained conversation with a drunk man. I believe he believes that only through suffering can one achieve enlightenment (either that or he was just trying to scare me or something). But (and it's too late to say it to the dude) it's all about perception. Reality is data and perception's our interpretation of it, get the interpretation skewed and the whole thing looks different.

..this is completely incidental and about nothing in particular..

So I think about aspd a lot, the nature of things (natural cycles of mind and world) and aspd within that. Observations show clearly that aspd is diagnosed when empathy sways the other way, particularly in cases where an individual is capable of altering their behaviour and for whatever reasons decides not to empathise with others as a primary focus (if incapable, tagged autistic / aspergers / apd). I've come to a loose theoretical conclusion, though I've no idea how true it is, that these things are variations on a theme and differences are likely something to do with the manner body (unconscious processes) presents the [data] questions to mind (conscious process).

On a lighter note I finally got to the end Season 1 of Dear White People - and I'd just like to say fuck yeah, that's an interesting idea for structure! (Oh and a bunch of obvious things about colourism and people being equal-ly fucked up regardless of race/gender/sexuality/personality/IQ/etc). It's been said that an ensemble cast gives a significantly wider scope for story telling, well it appears that script [directing, acing etc] takes on leaps like technology and wow this one's a Hubble. Genius. Great idea. In fan fiction [and novels, though more rarely] the switching POV has been used to ..simulate time passage, as route to give a story depth of world, to play off characers, etc.. Either I haven't seen it or it's not been used like this in tv.. uh, ever.. A shifting focus (Avengers) rather than a static protagonist (Breaking Bad) sure.. but an actual POV change chapter by chapter, I love it!

And in other news, Platypus caught her first bird yesterday morning... obviously I feed the birds... these little ones nested in our eaves.. I was a little upset.. may have screamed and scared the shit out of everyone. Little bird was completely fine, not a scratch on her. Bless Platypus she brought us a pristine dinner and was kept inside and played with for her troubles most of the day. About an hour later we took the bird outside and I heard her* singing for the dawn a little while ago - she's well and seems happy - *bit of an assumption but there are three of them and I heard three little birds so :) yay!

This little earworm gets a chance every morning:

Oh.. and I came home to fucking epic new Daily Show* after being rescued after being stranded on the way back.. people are awesome, even if I do need to periodically run away!

*..so badass and awesome and pretty and at this point I may actually be a fangirl of Michelle Wolf. Hassan's faces crack me up too (all round amazing cast and probably crew though we don't see them so it's harder to tell). And a moment of zen that left me felling balanced after last night's show :D  /fangirl ;)

 <-- does anyone know what kind of tree this is? Thinking oak but I'm terrible at tree identification (all about the hugging!)

hello..


I ran away to the wilderness for a little while, it was very pretty. I got a lot of exercise and thought about the universe, religion and how we connect with each other (animals, human or otherwise) and ourselves - talked to the birds who lived nearby (they mostly laughed at how I can't hold a note) and generally avoided humanity.



This is a field.

This is a graveyard.

Ignorance: how people treat knowledge they don't want to assimilate

lately: thinking lots, writing little - sorry will be back in the next day or so

Maybe this is dumb and unnecessary to say, but it's been bothering me so... Before when I said "..mock the other side (and prop ourselves up with their perceived embarrassment) we're only making fools of ourselves. Peace and equality don't stem from antagonism and aggression." I made the assumption that people are aware and/or agree with the idea that showing something/one as ridiculous/flawed is sometimes the only counter to idiocy, but there is a line between holding up as flawed and mockery with an intention to harm or to 'prop one's self up with their perceived embarrassment'.

NB: Family is a strange and wonderful thing.

Morning all :) Just used my toothbrush to stir my ("monstrosity") of a homemade mocha (instant coffee + instant hot chocolate).. seems somehow counterproductive :)) made me chuckle anyway.. While doing this:

With this (filled with singing little birds) just outside:

Cycles don't break in one huge snap, ideally, if they do they have a tendency to go violently. It takes little increments and small kindnesses over time to truly change the flow of a river.. damming can only go so far.


[Add: My experience of protest has taught me that the air can become charged very easily. My experience of life says that things change in an instant, nothing is constant, it must be built on a structure / frame or it'll collapse soon after people stop holding it up. Peace first. The aim of most protests (that I consider in line with my ideology) is peace and equality. When we forget that to mock the other side (and prop ourselves up with their perceived embarrassment) we're only making fools of ourselves. Peace and equality don't stem from antagonism and aggression. Yes, there must be weight to change the course of a moving boulder but that weight can be peacefully persistent and effective more easily than it would if screaming and throwing fire....
Peace and equality. Create calm with calm intent].

Hello big world :)




Today I confused gravity with gravity on my bookmarks. Haven taken meds for heads.. am off the deep end :)
Miss you already Daily Show :P lol

 
[Just have to add --->
numbers make me giggle.. the meds may not have worn off yet!]

Would like to write about something happy for once.. so here's a little news. Our girl had a healthy baby, nicknamed newt. She's furry and beginning to move out of the bed, though usually accompanied (and often attached!)

The whole thing is a little bit* like this video (below) except she only had newt and she's very happy with the amount of mothering needed in the day.
*Since newt's an only child she was a lot more like the photo at birth than tiny ones in the video, even had some fur.

Gets good about 25 seconds in.. score one for the spikey bastards.


With love.

Okay, so this is cool.* Uh, some people who read this actually uh have probably heard me rant before about the D Wave and google and nasa. So the D Wave inspired a (finally mostly unfinished) piece that I wrote for a thing (that it failed on) uh some number of years ago [fuck, brain! why migraine now?] uh.. so, yeah I wrote the thing because I was procrastinating online and found (like a real Asimov story) this tiny group of people had been working on something weird and all they needed to do (really) was sort out the decoherence problem, so google bought the idea and passed it on to nasa who worked on it for a while and made a breakthrough a couple of years ago, they passed that back to google and somewhere along the line this paper thingy popped up. Wow.

* .... .. daydream about how close we could now be to the beginnings of bladerunner.. just saying..

This video is awesome!

Also check out this Nature paper :) or the easier read article.

Warning: this aint happy, but it's a kind of forward motion

Watching a documentary on drug abuse in Salt Lake and the area. You know when.. a bunny starts hopping around in the back of your mind and won't stop until you put pen to paper, then once it's written the bunny tells you it's the best thing you ever ever could ever have wrote? ..yeah, just got that.

                                Falling

When your external

and internal are

Seperate.

Anything that can

bring you back

together.

When you're

spinning and the two

won't sync.

An illusion

of

unity

is easier

than

the honest

truth

hold

just

open

let the flow take you

and bring you back whole.



For a little fun - play with your eyes :) image exemplifies the peripheral drift illusion:

Also because I find this amusing the blogger spellcheck is highling the words 'let' 'seperate' and fucking 'truth'  ... lol

Been ill, will be back..

Sat in a field enjoying a smoke, dinner's being cooked for me over there and I don't know if you can see it (below) the sky is amazing right now. From gold to Blue with purples on the horizon.

Going camping for the weekend.. in an hour and I haven't cheked the tent or kit yet! Eeeep! Should be beautiful.

and Platypus!

Shorty's outside with a flock, Big Bird and a beautiful pale tan female I've come to call Elegance :) Platypus's doing well, she's put on weight and isn't so desperate for pretty much the biggest hugs I've had from a feline. We're no closer to finding her previous loved ones though my housemate seems inclined to keep her as long as we can!

My brain's not working today, it's like a hub of static. Can't hold a thought long enough to .. write a sentence. So starting from November I'm watching Daily Show back to the present, great thing is whole chunks of it are like new bc I don't remember anything lol .. .. .. As Paul Ryan: 'Weeks and months of years spent not doing anything,' that one got funnier with time.

Last but not least I came across this guy online today. There's some interesting things in here :)

Wait.. what? I know my Attenborough's weird.. that's why I like him.. Uh??

Accidentally picked up another stray! Now we have six rats (more since I think the little lady's pregnant again), two or three giant humans depending on the day and a cat named Platypus.. in a four room house, it's a bit mad. Outside wildlife is doing well: Shorty's dad graced us with a visit, the cat was initially brought inside for scaring birds and teddy face the wild rat (who seems happy now the cat's gone!)

Otherwise I'm on day 3 of this round of migraine and it sucks - stairs are evil and why do we need a bladder anyway? Daily Show's had some fucking awesome interviews again, other shows that I like are back on and .. well I can't complain too hard at being forced into sitting on my ass watching tv and staving the ache off with the occasional smoke. It could be a whole lot worse.


Oh so I've been thinking about structure and formatting again: do you remember the Three Point thingy that went for pages and never really got anywhere except I think maybe it told a story.. well the means piece has turned into something like that. Ideas that don't quite string together so I'll probably be posting as a mini-series on Protest... which, uh, yeah, look around bc the whole world seems to be in on this game right now.   .. I was gonna say something derogatory about Thatcher / May here.. but they knida tell the joke for you [link died.. new image]

IAF is full of cool things these days, though there's a disturbing amount of explosions (missile tests, etc) some of the time....  Here's another couple of cool & weird animals..

The world's a strange place when you're listening to David Bowie. Have a sunny day guys :P

Morning, bit of a weird link for you today. There's a scene/song of a show that I'd like to share but haven't found a way to link it directly.. so skip to 25:35 and have a listen to the thing ;) "Peace can never come from frustration and anger. A nation that's divided, well that's a nation in danger."

The rats are all good, though any pregnancy that was is no longer, they themselves are well and happy (nesting in the curtains [with her twigs and food stashes, it's very cosy] atm bc she likes watching out the window). Also I saw the wild western with the beautiful happy teddy nose yesterday, she's nervous around humans (naturally) but took the offered peanuts :) Shorty's been off exploring the world for the last week or so, very happy to see him back yesterday (skinny and malnourished, silly bugger should've come home sooner!) but he seemed happy to tuck into a giant pile of food and surprised me by how much he smiled my way before he started eating.

[Add: Just seen Shorty again, he's still smiling and a little rounder :)  have a great night dude].


The world is kind of terrifying and made up largely of quiet people and noisy assholes, but you never know what might happen - humans could all die out and the birds and rats could take over... or we could get our shit together... anything can happen, anything can be.

Always try.




Still working on the means piece, maybe some good stuff coming into this one... :) release tbc

This guy, "And now I'm a refugee in France - but let me to live, man. I don't want anything from you. I don't want eating from you. I don't want anything from you. I don't need help! But let me to live."

A trailer went up for this a little while ago. The full extended with english subs which I think complete runs for four hours or more so it's broken into an hour & ~20min blocks, Volumes 1-3 (below, from the beginning).



[Oh Jonathan and Argus - these two made my day :)

Add: Thinking and talking with a friend recently.. she's unconvinced but.. it seems to me that innocence behaves an awful lot like trust - once gone it feels devoid, takes a long time (relative to the losing) to heal and when returned can be empowering in that expansive sort of way. The dissimilarities aren't even too different.... there you go folks, my pondering for the day. Now I'm off to get into meetings with commissioners and do some legalese translating - happy tuesday!]

Sudden seemingly simple realisation: I'm posting these links today because the more people from places and cultures that I meet/understand the more I love humanity and with the world news the way it is, I need some love for humans right now.

Thank you (persons reading this) sometimes you guys are the people who make me feel like there are others out there that want these connections too. I mean everyone reading - who know who you are, who hit when I'm hitting it, catch the flow..

Have some strange music because I have no energy - day three of this round of migraine arrrrgggghhhhhh...... :/

I do not feel fine.. hangover.. oh man... worth it! happy sunday folks :P

Learn

Break the cycle
Be the one to change
Fall, get up and try again.

     NB: Not so much a poem as a teenage mantra still going.

This just made me laugh!

...I get that the world right now is in something of a state of uproar (as though it's ever not) and I can totally see how frustrating that is when a lot of the time it's just waiting, convincing and hoping for people to wake up .. .. .. but the options are limited and when you take the biggest picture view (excepting situations that have/do spin into violence) antagonism only gets you so far with anyone, you know? Patience. Wait out the rage and do something more useful.

[Add: hey Daily Show don't flog a dead horse...  :) "can't stay mad.." ...

Expanse (below) it's a shoddy gif but it only took a min to throw together... great show].

New rats are settling in well, they're very bold and exceptionally friendly - though Curio has a fondness for nibbling and, like a kitten's claws, his teeth are pretty sharp so they have a collection of sticks and blocks to chew on now ;)

Shorty's dad is outside right now clucking at the ladies, his flock's been keeping an eye on me all afternoon lol

Here's a couple of interesting things in the world lately: a guy built a car out of scrap and waste, this video is worth watching again even if you've seen it, and lastly during a drought a snake walks into town for a pint.

Have a great day guys, even when it's trying to rain on you!

This evening there's three new rats in the house [pics to follow!] two boys and a girl - who we believe is soon-ish to have babies herself. I'd guestimate she's two week along, so expect either good news [and lots more pictures] or awol.

Okay, two things:

1: This page has seen a huge uptick in hits since that guy drove his car into a bunch of people then stabbed someone and got shot for his pains. You may have noticed that I haven't said anything about it. That's because in my estimation of the world this is not a significant outlier or a red flag for anything that I'm involved in except by its proximity. These are things that I talk about here anyway and therefore I haven't felt a need to discuss it directly.

With that in mind, I've just seen a statement which lets me know that something I've been talking about for fucking ages [with people in my life] is coming to the fore in society. "There will be lessons to learn including whether [...] the perpetrator was directed or groomed to commit such an appalling crime." Once or twice I've mentioned a [third wheel] piece that I'm slowly churning through in the background, Manipulation... we haven't defined the words yet, that's why the author of the above [at a guess] was fumbling for the word and put down two to give you a contrast bc the doesn't currently occur in conversation or text on a regular enough basis that it came to mind. Language changes fastest by use so I'm working on this Coercion/Manipulation piece... eta-post month or so. [re-learning a little deutsche to get another perspective on it too... eep..].

2: Also while writing ^^ the pigeons prompted me to put food down outside.... hehe I've seen the pregnant lady! She's not pregnant anymore, disappeared out the gate when I got close! There must be someone at home presently caring for the babies :D She's got plenty of weight on her still and looked tired but healthy.

[New Day is harder to hear than some of the others so lyrics sheet].
Working on the means piece again today, I hope it's gonna be worth the effort to read when it's done.. lol.. Learning loads in the process though so ;) that ^^ is my soundtrack, enjoy!
[Add: Aaaarrrruuughhhhhh - brain melting! Must stop! If I do say so myself, I'ma little proud of some shit I just wrote: ~4 days to post.]

Being a giant hippy today ;)



Protests yesterday seemed to be more effective than I'd expected, pleasantly surprising.

Push it:

P.s. Thanks Daily Show Noah lol .. now I can just get a fedora!!
Then everyone will understand that I'm celibate and I could go out for a drink with mates without getting hit on by random people. Not that there's anything wrong with being-or-hitting on people but it's a pain in the ass to try explain non-religious celibacy over the music and without becoming centre of attention for something that's honestly just uncomfortable to talk about in a large group (sometimes I say I'm taking vows... it's easier). And the moment you say 'No sorry, that's not, I don't..' they ask.. oh boy do they ask: I once sat grumpily beside an actual friend while being asked (by a 'friend') my full story (we're talking at least an hour) right back to the paedophilia and networks of rapists and through to why I'm now celibate - then he spent the taxi ride home hitting on my friend by text... *sigh* I could've maybe should've told him to shut up but he shouldn't fucking ask...
        If only it were as easy as an item of clothing. Just for an illusory moment there it was lol
Oh and for the record.. may have been oooohs in the studio, I laughed aloud.

I am such an ass, nearly choked to death on coffee a moment ago...

It looks like people have been using the sounds so here's another couple that I like:

Studying/Focus:
1. This one I write to 432hz
2. For editing 'alpha wave'
3. Very similar to the 'love frequency' been using it primarily for thinking and meditation (below)


Conversation Makers:
[1.] [Alpha wave placeholder bc I can't find it yet but it was great... trawling through history now...]
2. This is something I feel that everyone should know ;) even if it's not in the same vein.
3. You might not even know this is playing if you have it low on volume, but it'll have the impact anyway... A little while ago in our mad house we had a bunch of people together (half stoned, half drunk) on very different wavelengths, this sound-thing really seemed to help conversation. I've also used this frequency for meditation.

Just come across this while looking up the others, quite enjoying it so far... oh, nope, giving me a headache.

Lastly, on the means piece.. been avoiding but I'm actually working in it again today, eta-post give me a week or two to get it back in order and re-write-up.

My garden had a visitor this morning... She's heavily pregnant, waddle-hopping her belly off the floor and she has this most adorable brown furred chubby teddy face with (narrowed in the light) big black eyes. She stopped by yesterday and ran when I interrupted her; this morning I scared [might be a strong word, she wasn't exactly running and stopped at the gate to watch me] her away during the last of pre-dawn as I went out to feed the birds.. she's so confidant she came back with a friend right after I left, they stopped at the Jez Diner for about 5 minutes :) unfortunately the video crapped out (I'm having a run of bad luck with tech lol) so I can't show you her chubby tail and happy ratty fingers. At one point my stomach rumbled and she surprised me by breaking the 4th (window) wall - looked up at me like, 'don't let me keep you from breakfast, go on, shoo human'.



Oh and do you remember that pigeon from before (I knew his dad from way back, last winter)? They were both down this morning, Droopy and the adults left pretty quickly but [oh com'on give me an idea guys, I suck at names.. he'll be called shorty for his beak if no one else names him] Shorty and the younglings stuck around. Many fights, much teens.

The squirrels have been around again with the better weather too. A very strong male (probably father of the not-so-babies-anymore) dropped in for a snack before dashing off to the end of the row (as the squirrels do every morning).

Good luck with the day people, hope it's a productive one ;)

On the understanding that aesthetics mean very little when it comes to audio, please don't judge these sounds based on the ... seriously, 'love frequency'?! ... ..*sigh*.. ... they have seemingly been helping meditation/thinking lately though:

Rant:
Attract love? Bah! I've heard more of this lately (some tv bullshit, but some actual cult-y nonsense too).. this sort of thing: 'Seek love and love will find you'. Sure if you're open to the possibility sometimes people will give you what you expect (if they're willing to give) partly because people often try to live up to others' expectations and partly because if you want to hold love for someone and they're okay with that then it's instinctively easier. I have a problem with the illusion, though I guess sometimes people just want to love blindly. Can't fault that.

Something we, humans, seem to forget in the hustle and bustle of daily life.. these psychological processes are ongoing. A little while ago I was talking about being a teen and wanting to make it all stop, it doesn't work like that. The one thing we can guarantee is that time passes, so if we're alive we keep ticking and these things in our minds go on.

I watch a lot of tv and read a lot of fiction, I love ideas and the windows that you get into people's minds with their fictional interpretations. I try to understand people through these obscured flashes. In a manner it's not much unlike talking to people in person, we give you cues and thoughts or ideas and if you take (the moments it takes) you can see more of who we are by how we say the things and spend our time.

A lot of the time, I have migraines or things that masquerade as migraines. I wonder sometimes if that's not more the ongoing process of learning not to hate everything. Other times it appears to be an entirely medical condition (e.g. strobing* lights will trigger a migraine regardless of how I feel). Medical science has always been something interesting to me.. (wait that's a lie, in school I wanted to be a physicist and ignored my biology teacher when he said I had a talent). Maybe, it seems natural to me, is more accurate. And again I think that's the more anti-social aspects of me, the bits that watch autopsies and say 'wow, bloody humans work' instead of 'eewwwww livers are gross..' (for the record, imo a liver's one of the least aesthetically pleasing organs, lower intestines' are weird looking too).
*Google can spell but owns Blogger whose spellchecker has some strange issues with words... Strobing.

Anyway, humans are weird things and we forget that.. we don't instinctively give ourselves enough space to happen - on the right wavelengths at the right moments.

Rally in the rain! So much is happening today I've already missed two of the things I wanted to see.. got there for the end of the pro-choice rally which had loads'a people despite the wet! (Heard there was an anti-choice person present saying horrible things, though I didn't meet him).

Random but last week's SNL Weekend Update was fucking epic... Hopefully this week's [no SNL this week? :( aww] and Last Week will tide me over until TDS is back...

I understand some people tried to create a Nightly Show in the UK... I haven't actually seen it (nothing you don't have to sign up for seems to be online yet..) but I heard it was saved by the same person who saved Big Brother many years ago so.. on that account I haven't looked too hard, [hmm, judge-y of me] but I can't imagine that it'll be the same as the Nightly Show:

Little update on the laptop and Means piece, it's gone. There seems to be no way presently to access the file, which means I'm starting from scratch and memory as of today (with roughly half the research saved to another pc). Hopefully the final piece will be more refined from this re-start, though presently I'm cursing the gods of dodgy laptop hinges.

Bird Tails: There's a russet brown and speckled white dove that's been hanging around mine at lunch and supper on&off for a year or so now, I believe he's male from the amazing green and purple chest feathers. A month or so ago a saw him with a youngling, very similar features (down to the abnormally short beak) speckling and chest pattern, though grey and white instead of brown; I figure this is offspring. A couple of days ago the new male came for lunch alone* he was making abortive but kind gestures that were being (very reasonably) taken for aggression by the other birds, I watched this three or four times... You know sometimes when you look an animal in they eye and you just get what they're thinking.. so I made a couple of opening hand-motions and made slowing sounds to imply calm down.. the bird cocked his head at me and did a head tilt that I'm beginning to recognise as a whatever/eye-roll/nonchalance and tried to approach the same dark grey bird, this time more slowly and without the peck-like gesture, the bird allowed him closer. He cooed and I left because it was bloody cold (England in March...). Half hour later I see him and the four other birds clustered together-ish (you know how they like a little personal space) and muttering between one another. Today he's back with a few other birds and Droopy, they seem to have become friends.

* The father was absent but completely fine, cooing at the girls when I next saw him lol he knows how handsome he is!

Hope you're having a great day people!

My laptop (which the Means of Preotest piece is saved on) broke yesterday afternoon. There's a guy I know that might be able to fix it and I may be able to get the file off it today anyway... it's just going to be a little harder to finish for now.

So meanwhile, I finally got around to starting Empire (102 playing while I type here)....
[Below - that is an angry pause-face, damn she's beautiful].

 "...accept the reality that these things happened but do not let them cloud [you]. If you are to be a positive influence on the world, you need to forgive yourself."
Guru Pathik

Daww, no Daily Show today. I understand that was also for snow, though the frozen water kind rather than the adorable rat man.

Over there ---->
is the Cat's Eye nebula as seen by Hubble:

"The full beauty of the Cat's Eye Nebula (NGC 6543) is revealed in this new, detailed view from NASA's Hubble Space Telescope. The image from Hubble's Advanced Camera for Surveys (ACS) shows a bull's eye pattern of eleven or even more concentric rings, or shells, around the Cat's Eye. Each 'ring' is actually the edge of a spherical bubble seen projected onto the sky - that's why it appears bright along its outer edge.

Observations suggest the star ejected its mass in a series of pulses at 1,500-year intervals. These convulsions created dust shells, each of which contain as much mass as all of the planets in our solar system combined (still only one percent of the Sun's mass). These concentric shells make a layered, onion-skin structure around the dying star. The view from Hubble is like seeing an onion cut in half, where each skin layer is discernible.

The bull's-eye patterns seen around planetary nebulae come as a surprise to astronomers because they had no expectation that episodes of mass loss at the end of stellar lives would repeat every 1,500 years. Several explanations have been proposed, including cycles of magnetic activity somewhat similar to our own Sun's sunspot cycle, the action of companion stars orbiting around the dying star, and stellar pulsations. Another school of thought is that the material is ejected smoothly from the star, and the rings are created later on due to formation of waves in the outflowing material.

Credit: NASA, ESA, HEIC, and The Hubble Heritage Team (STScI/AURA)"

 March 8th

It has been possible in nearly every situation (that I can think of that applies here) to get through to people who are holding convictions of rage. That said, it takes skill, time, patience and [here's the typical kicker for people] actually a bit of love and respect.

                      They will not hear you if they don't feel you're listening to them.

Of course often they're not listening to you, but that's the first trick. Both sides must be engaged to play the game and aware of what the game entails: in this scenario a debate in which you are each trying to sway the other's opinions.
           I'm going to use as an example a stalemate-debate that I had recently with an anti-choice extremist (a lot of them there were hardcore, this guy is taking it to the extreme). Using a simple good-cop bad-cop routine he was encouraged to step aside and talk to me reasonably calmly.

His first remark; "They're going to tell you I hate women, it's not true.... [etc] .." at this point he was talking, game mode not engaged. My reply ("I don't care for rumour, I'd like to know why you're here?") started the game.

[Add: there would have been a couple of examples here of how someone can get something past you openly, make you in conversation agree to something in principle by a round-about route and then start pushing you on it... It's [antisocial] manipulation style 001. A prime example is What'sHisName, ThatCockWhoFuckedOverTheUK and the breastfeeding thing "I don't think it's hard to.." no it's not hard but that doesn't make it right to literally force people into a corner either, what an asshole. Anyway so this a placeholder that's uh I guess sorta filled now.. Haha! Thanks asshole, you're such a smooth operator it was so fucking easy to find this link].

[...transition/cut...]

Good morning folks. It's 8am and I'm hard at work on the Protest piece. That said, I'm currently wanting to include just fuck-tons of stuff and data, and I think it might take another couple of days yet to complete.

Random note 1: it's Tuesday which means I can get monday night's comedy.... And that little TDS scroll has come in really handy - thank you Daily Show! 2: Finding it consistently amusing that I keep expecting friends to get tired of TDS snippets or whole episodes.. they always seem to love it :) We had some uproarious laughter yesterday! (Lopez, Mar.6)

[Add: interviews ;) ftw]

Monkey teaches human how to crack the nut with a stone from iaf









for Snow :D

Ruminations on 15 years of ptsd below:

Good morning :) I'm still working on that piece (sorry it'll be an essay before it's done, I'm sure..). And in order to write the Means of Protest, I went to a peaceful protest... Turns out here where I live there's a couple of people who are.. I'm not gonna call them extremists, but they're pretty fucking hardcore on the judgement side of things.. who are hanging around outside the hospital where people go for abortions, cervical screenings, general check-ups and other female-body-part things with anti-choice signs around their necks.

I think the majority of the pro-choice (my side, ovs) were truly fairly peaceful (conversations around Women's Rights and Transgender issues seemed to resolve in the face of the anti-choice crowd)... On the anti-choice side there was some chanting, some shouting (incoherent gibberish about blaming us for something that I didn't hear, if it ever did make sense).

And afterwards I went to see a film that I would highly recommend:



*grins* Hey! It's Tuesday! You know what that means? New Daily Show! *even bigger grin as it loads up on my screen*
Fucking epic Last Week last night too :) life is good for me today.

Hello, I try to post most days, sorry it's been a couple this time.. been busy getting involved in things... and writing things.. there'll be a long ramble soon (been working on it for days....)

Completely unrelated but kind of awesome, have a look at this short video.. it's living art (think they must be being lured with food or something..?) Interesting as Fuck always has some good things.
[Add: okay this is fucking cool too; the camera shutter speed almost perfectly matches the speed of the helicopter's rotors, strangely hypnotising effect... or maybe that's the tiredness kicking in lol
2nd add: Oh fuck, this is really cool too... the images sent with Voyager (not the tv show).]

Beautiful Baby Rats: Terry's staring up at the camera, D. at the bottom grinning, Kin's keeping watch out of the window. These guys get up to so much shit and we love them for it... especially when Terry's winding up his brothers and jumping onto my face at (silly)am, then he gets kissed on the head until he squirms... ;)

*snorts coffee painfully through nose* Damn you, Pobjie(!) hahah this! [[haha typo] excerpt below]
Fake news! As discovered by satirist Ben Pobjie:

Malcolm Turnbull: Mr President, I just called to discuss  –

Donal Trump: Did you know that in Australia people carry babies in pouches?

MT: I …

DT: Saw it on TV. Little pouches. Can’t afford nannies. Sad!